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Five Minute Friday: Glue

I thought grace too insubstantial to really resurrect the sinner. Grace seemed the scarcest of things. The gossamer kind of covering that never really got much done but looked pretty in the right light. It was the forgiver of dark night’s confession and the amnesia card played so God would forget all the terrible things we do and think and are. I hoped it would erase the old things but I never imagined it would redeem them.  I believed we started with grace, it was essentially the giant eraser zigzagging across the dirty board, sending plumes of our old life up in smoky clouds. We’d give them a good whack shaking off the scratchings and scribbles of our pre-saved lives. But then it was up to us to rewrite the lessons in hand-lettered chalk drawings with laurel leafs and curly q’s. But … [Read More...]

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In Which I Would’ve Hated This Book: Spiritual Misfit

  My friend, Michelle DeRusha wrote a book I would have hated in the fledgling days of faith. My opinion wouldn’t have been based on her writing, which slips easily between comedy confessional and poignant truth, a feat that is hard to do for the best of writers.  My dislike would have stemmed from my gut reaction to her own fear and … [Read More...]

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An Announcement, A Celebration, and A Good Long Ugly Cry.

I have big exciting news. This post was supposed to be me sharing that. I tried to write it all day. But I couldn’t. So, I gave up and realized that sometimes when you write and it comes out differently than you planned, it just might be the elixir for what ails you. This is that. The moments of grief crash hard at inopportune times, like … [Read More...]

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Five Minute Friday: Writer

Photo credit You tell me in a strangled voice that you write to a god who seemed so far away and you whispered into that tiny blue notebook with the white flower petals lacing the cover, that you wished you could understand why months of blood keep coming and you pray to be a mama and you scribble frantically sometimes because Yetanesh  is … [Read More...]